My Lining SHRUNK???

This morning was my CD19 u/s and b/w. I've been thinking thick thoughts (alliteration) and wearing my two patches and taking my estrace. And this morning, the tech told me that my lining was 7.2 mm. I said, "How can that be? It was at 7.3 on Friday." She told me that she already checked it a second time when she realized that, but she would check it a third time. And, once again, it was 7.2mm.

The RE said that he will see me again on Wednesday for yet another u/s and b/w. That's CD22. I asked him what will happen if it doesn't thicken, and he told me that we would try another strategy. I'm thinking that means that they would have to cancel this cycle - yet another one missed out on - and start over again!!! But, if they do that, then the fact that I had my biopsy to make my lining sticky last cycle would be for nothing...meaning that I would have to have another biopsy??? I'm just guessing here!

But it gets worse...at my appointment, my RE said he was happy to see my estrogen numbers were climbing and so he thought my lining would thicken as well. I got a call this afternoon from the nurse. Apparently my b/w today showed that my numbers went down. So, they increased me to a third patch!!! I've gone up from one patch to three this week.

I must say, I've been feeling really down today. I originally thought that I was going to be transferring tomorrow...now it looks like if my lining miraculously grows between now and Wednesday, I won't be transferring until next Monday...which isn't terrible. I can deal with next Monday. And I'm sure I'll be able to deal with taking a cycle off too. It just doesn't take away from the disappointment. I've been waiting for so long to get this started. I know this is nothing compared with the disappointment I will feel if it doesn't take. But I'll get through that too. For now, I'm going to allow myself to feel disappointed.