Stress mounting

Okay, as if I haven't been going through enough with all of the fertility stuff, and anxiously awaiting my transfer...I'm also temporarily living at my parents' place (for less than one more month now). Tonight my mother and I got into a huge fight about nothing. Then, when I tried to resolve everything, she walked away or just tried to pacify me...and I hate being soothed! I thought it was very big of me to approach her to work things out. But no, she was fine with not talking to me, and even left the house tonight without saying goodbye, knowing I would be asleep when she got home. She doesn't understand why I'm upset!

Well, hello? For the past several months I've been on drugs galore, poked and prodded and now...finally now...the day is almost here! Tomorrow morning I will probably be told the date of my transfer. IT IS OVERWHELMING, YOU KNOW!!!

On top of this, I had two terrible dreams last night that had me waking up gasping for breath. One I forgot by the time I woke up for real. The other one was that my RE refused to do the transfer this cycle for absolutely no reason at all. So, as you can see, even my subconscious is overwhelmed.

Really, I thought I was doing okay, but I guess I'm not...add on top of all this, that I haven't been working out my frustrations through exercise for over a month now due to my foot injury (and other demands placed on me)...and now I won't be able to do anything during my 2ww either.

I just feel that I made a step to talk to my mother to try to work things out, and what we were arguing about was the most miniscule thing that ever was, and she walked away. I think it takes a big person to want to try to talk things out...and I don't deserve the silent treatment over nothing. Life is too short for this!

And...I really need my own space back...my own home...where I can do what I want without having to deal with other people!!! Today I booked my moving date and my movers...but one month is a long time...and by then I'll know if I'm pregnant or not.