Just a couple of weeks ago I was completely consumed by anxiety. It's weird how those anxieties just disappear and I don't feel them anymore. How does that happen? In any case, I'm not complaining.
On Friday I went to the RH location of my clinic. The u/s tech there is so rough with the wand. I thought I had a UTI all day from her and it burned to pee. My lining is pretty comparable to what it was before I conceived S....so gradually increasing the estrogen :) My next appointment is on Monday (holiday).
I'm not sure if I mentioned in an earlier post that a teacher at school has been confiding in me about her fertility struggles - she has a child but is having difficulty conceiving again. She lives far from work and had been using a clinic near her home but thought they weren't doing a lot for her. She switched to my clinic thinking that the location close to work would be great - although I did tell her that she would also have to drive to other locations for procedures and when the one near work is closed three days/week. I did not tell her I was T42. Well, sure enough I was having my blood drawn on Friday morning and she walked by the blood room and saw me and said hi. I went out to talk to her and explained that I have not told anyone and that I did feel guilty b/c she had been confiding in me, but that also she could trust that I wasn't telling anyone about her - although I think she's more open about it than I am. We only talked briefly but she's so nice and seemed to be really understanding about me not telling her in return. I then had to go have my u/s and then after the u/s she had hers and I had to talk to the nurse. At school we sat together at the same lunch table but obviously didn't discuss our fertility as we were in public. In a way I'm glad she knows - it takes a weight off of my shoulders :)
Scarlett news:
a) she can stand on her own for about 10 seconds...then she drops down and says "again" b/c she thinks it's a game we're playing.
b) I think she's prematurely entering the terrible twos - definitely asserting herself, throwing mini tantrums. I hope this is a quick phase.
It's 9:40 and I want to be reading by ten. So much for doing school work tonight. Luckily it's a long weekend.
It's nice to have someone at school know :-). I also once met someone work related at a clinic.
ReplyDeleteI'm really glad you're not having such anxiety. That's gotta make things easier, in general.
ReplyDeleteFunny you mentioned tantrums because I have been reading up all weekend on discipline methods & handling tantrums since Elena is throwing them like crazy!