Not sure how I'm feeling about all of this...

This morning was CD25 - should be a lucky day as that was the day I was given the go ahead to prepare to conceive Scarlett.  I had to get Scarlett up at 6:10.  Even on days that I have to drop her at daycare at 7am I don't wake her before 6:40.  I took her to the clinic and they didn't even take me in until 7:10am...so why couldn't they have let me take her to daycare first?  I still would have been there for 7:10 and I could have let her sleep a little longer.  Grrrr.

I had to entertain Scarlett for 30 minutes and I wouldn't let her out at all b/c then I knew she wouldn't sit still during my u/s and b/w.  Poor thing kept saying "walk, walk" but I occupied her with a Dora book she hasn't read in a while so it was definitely a novely..."again, again" after reading all the pages.  She was AMAZING in the u/s room.  A combination of being really tired, looking around the dark room with the computer screen, mommy half naked on the table, the snack trap of cheerios that she couldn't figure out how to get them out...she was quiet :)

My lining is now at 8.0mm....we made it to 8.  Ideally it should be between 8 and 10mm.  Last time it was 8.4 on this day so I'm close but not so close.  The nurse told me to book for an u/s and b/w for Sunday just in case, and otherwise she would call me this afternoon.

It was 3:00 when my phone finally rang.  I had basically figured my RE said we should keep waiting b/c it was so late.

Here's the thing:  They want me to transfer on TUESDAY at 10am.  If you recall, Tuesday was supposed to be my big meeting with my principal and an outside person regarding ordering my equipment for next year.  They actually wanted to transfer me on Thursday, but I had reminded my nurse in a voice message that Scarlett has her ENT appointment Thursday.  My RE is in another clinic Wed. morning but then does procedures at the main clinic after that.  I asked why not Wednesday and apparently he has too many procedures already and he doesn't get there until late.

The problem is not me missing this meeting.  The problem is I won't have had enough time on the progesterone.  Why have me go through so much and wait so long but not have me on the progesterone for very long?  They know I don't produce my own hormones...I mean look, I'm on 2 estrace twice a day (4 pills), 3 patches, and one vaginal pill just to build up to a measly 8.0mm lining.  So to only give me 3 full days and one partial day (today) of the progesterone pills and suppositories, is that going to hinder my chances at conceiving?  Especially b/c I'm only transferring one embryo.  I think I'm going to set my alarm to wake up to take a 1am suppository just to give me that extra bit of progesterone - at least I will have had two doses of the pills and two of the suppositories for today instead of the three doses.

Do I call the RE tomorrow to ask him his logic for not waiting until Friday?  My lining needed to thicken anyway.  I just know that if it doesn't work, I'm going to blame the fact that we rushed the transfer.  And why rush if we've done all of these tests and the biopsy and we waited for my lining and I took all these meds?

I'm so tired....going to get ready for bed.