Not a lot of time...too much stress

For the most part, I like my RE and my clinic.  For the most part, I feel like I am in good hands and that I am not a number.  For the most part, I feel respected and well cared for.

I am in a mood also, so that may exaggerate how I am feeling.

Today is Friday - my last day to be in the classroom setting up before school starts again on Tuesday.  I am not quite sure why I compete against myself and try to reinvent the wheel every year.  I am not feeling very prepared - maybe b/c I couldn't bring myself to do ANY work all summer.

SR has a cold...back to daycare for one week, and she already has a cold.  We are now using the antibiotic ear drops too, b/c there have been ear crusties...gotta keep those tubes clear.  She hates the drops!  I have had a sore throat all day...I think I am catching SR's cold - little sleep and a lot of stress could add to it, but mostly it's SR offering me her boogers to kiss after she wiped her own nose.

Back to the clinic.  I last saw my RE on Wednesday.  I was thinking very highly of him on Wednesday.  That's b/c he told me that I didn't need to take medication to bring on a cycle.  He told me that Wednesday was just going to be CD1 and to come in on Friday for CD3 and also to see him.  That meant TWO clinic trips today.  One in the morning for u/s and b/w.  One in the afternoon to follow up with him.

I had a 3:50 follow-up.  I busted my butt to get there on time.  I really could have used more time in the classroom.  I sat and waited until 5pm to see him.  For a 3 minute chat.

When I finally got in to see him, I found him to be snippy with me...THREE TIMES.  I'm sorry that his day was running late and whatever else is going on in his life.  But my day wasn't easy either and I wasn't snippy. I am going to share here what happened and then try to let it go b/c everyone has a bad day and we'll call this his bad day.

First of all, he made a teacher/politics comment.  I'm not going to get into the story here...those of you who live in Ontario should be quite familiar with the news surrounding our government and teacher contracts.  Other than to tell you that the minister is saying nothing but lies, I'm not going to make this a political rant.  But I did say to the RE "Don't even go there" when he said something about teachers.  He chuckled, so I think he thought he was being funny.  As a teacher in the midst of this "crisis" I don't find it funny at all.

The second comment was after I mentioned to him that the nurse this morning said I had to have another Sono (SHG).  I said to him that I just had one recently with him.  His response was along the lines of "This is not up for negotiation.  I am trying to get you pregnant."  I wasn't trying to negotiate...I was just asking why I had to have another one.

The third thing was, suddenly I now have a thyroid problem....out of the blue.  I asked him to look back at when I conceived SR and also this latest pregnancy/miscarriage to see if the thyroid was the same.  He said that it was different then....ONE MONTH AGO IT WAS DIFFERENT????  So he was telling me that I have to fast and not take any other meds with this thyroid medication and to take it first thing in the morning.  I'm not even going to start talking about when I'm back on the progesterone that I have to fast for and the estrogen throughout the day.  I mentioned that I take my iron in the morning and need to wait for an hour to eat.  He said I need to wait for 2 hours after taking this medication.  So I said, "But when will I eat?"  His response was, "That should be easy for you.  You don't eat.  Look how skinny you are."  Again I had to defend myself...that I eat every hour and I have a fast metabolism.

Maybe he was joking around with me.  Maybe I was already annoyed waiting for an hour to talk for 3 minutes.  Maybe I was annoyed that I missed the whole week with SR while she was in daycare.  Maybe I was annoyed about things at work that are bugging me.  Maybe I was feeling lousy with a sore throat and stuffy nose.

Or maybe he was actually being snippy and taking his mood out on me.