5DPT

I deleted my previous post.  Thank you for your support.  I'm too nervous about anyone stumbling upon this blog.  That is why I had to start using SR instead of her name (temporarily).  B/c it is so sensitive that I'm T42, my mom stumbled upon my blog accidentally and that's when I realized that anyone could, even though I have privacy settings on.  So, here's hoping I get the support I need for Monday at work.  I hope that this pregnancy is a go - I would hate for it to not work out and me to blame this family and my administration for the stress that was caused during this time.

So, I'm absolutely exhausted and it's 8:45pm.  Pregnant?  My breasts are tender.  Progesterone supplements?

The thing is, I don't get a period...I never ovulated...so none of this could be upcoming period symptoms.  And I was on the progesterone for 4 days prior to the transfer and had no symptoms.

I think I need to POAS...but what a waste of money - especially b/c I will test Tuesday and Thursday (no matter what the results are on Tuesday).  But last pregnancy, my clinic "forgot" to call with my results and I had to chase the nurse down...ridiculous.  And I think if I POAS on Monday and it's positive I'll go into my meeting feeling better than if I don't....but, if I POAS Monday and it's negative, it could be false negative, but it will also having me heading into a meeting on the verge of tears where I need to try to keep it together.  So maybe if I do POAS I'll do it Tuesday morning before my blood test.  But isn't that a waste of 15 dollars?

SR just went to bed.  Her new thing is she goes down, I take my shower, and then she calls out through her monitor, "mommy, mommy".  When I go into her, she says, "watch the music."  That's b/c she had done this on a Sunday or Monday night and there is a great reality show in Canada on Sundays and Mondays - searching for a Dorothy for the Toronto version of the Wizard of Oz.  She obviously enjoyed the show b/c it's become a habit these days to ask to watch with me.