Today has been a very challenging day for me. Some might say that I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. The truth is that I'm just beyond overwhelmed...everything has finally caught up with me. I'm not feeling the same lightness about this whole thing, giggling about how many follicles I have. This is suddenly very very very real. All of a sudden I am realizing how much money I have invested in this and what if it doesn't work, which is a very real possibility.
All of the running every morning, getting up at 5 am, and then working full time and keeping up with my life; packing up my condo to move to my parents'; getting marking and report cards done! It's just all so overwhelming right now. Plus, the not knowing what day things are going to happen on. I need stability, and I don't have that right now with the unknown. Not to mention worrying about depending on someone other than my parents to drive me to my egg retrieval on Saturday if that's the day it has to happen...plus, I have done something bad to my tummy...was doing really well with the injections, until last night...now it's all purple and blue!
So, it's 6:09pm on Monday night...I'm so tired, but I have so much marking to do...so I'm going to sit myself down and try to accomplish something...wish I could have a nice, stiff drink...but alas, I know I shouldn't...and all of my alcohol has been moved out of here already! But a cup of steaming hot decaf tea isn't going to cut it! LOL.
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