I took my class on a field trip to the science centre this week. I spend most of the trip looking longingly at the women with their pregnant bellies or double strollers. I've already done my research for which double stroller I think I want (and hope it will fit in my car). I find that I'm constantly thinking about how I would do whatever it is that I'm doing at the time (such as carrying Scarlett) if I was also pregnant. MY CLOCK IS TICKING. This is great timing b/c I have my appointment coming up at the fertility clinic.
The problem I'm running into is my new-found "cycle". I had originally thought that I would go in March and have my pap and my consult done with my RE and be all set to go after my work evaluation at the beginning of April. The way my non-existent cycle was before, they put me on prevara, brought on a period, and then we started a cycle. I assumed that this would be the same. I would be ready to start after my evaluation.
Now that I have had 2 periods I am tracking my temperatures. Last month I had a 42 day cycle, but my temperature dropped the day before my period came. Now I'm already on day 31 with no sign of raised temperatures...
The dilemma now is that if my RE says I can transfer on my next cycle (without a monitoring cycle) b/c they don't need to do any egg retrieving, then that brings me sometime in the VERY near future...which will coincide with my Evaluation. The problem is I don't want extra stress before my transfer or evaluation...and this isn't necessarily stressful...it's the getting Scarlett up an hour earlier and having her completely thrown off schedule at daycare - that causes me stress.
If I wait until after this cycle, then who knows how long I will be waiting for my next period to come around...and isn't that the way this fertility stuff goes - WE ARE ALWAYS WAITING. I don't think the RE will put me on prevera to bring on a period if I am getting one on my own already.
This is all assumption, and I will have answers in just a couple of days...but I don't know if I can sit around waiting for another 2 months or more to see if I get another period. But my RE might say I need a test cycle first anyway.
In any case, the point of this blog was just that my clock is ticking...again :)
It's a lot to think about and juggle and the waiting just makes it worse. I remember wondering how I would ever manage to get pregnant with my second. It really did work it self out just by taking it one day and one step at a time. But, oh, yes, I remember feeling overwhelmed when beginning to T42. Best wishes to you on this second journey.
ReplyDeleteI'm very excited for you to be so close to trying for number two! Hope all the details & time fall into place...say hi to Nicole for me ( if she's still there)
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