Oh My Gosh...ROLLERCOASTER!!!

I have to tell you about my day - the range of emotions I have gone through in one day is pretty unbelievable!!!

When I woke up this morning there was a tiny tinge of pink (blood?).  I thought it was the beginning of a m/c.   Although it looked exactly like my implantation bleeding I had over a week ago!

I dropped Scarlett at daycare and went for my 8am blood test.  Most of the locations for my clinic you just walk in for a beta and walk out.  At this location in R. you have to have a scheduled appointment.  Mine was for 8am.  I sat and waited my turn but was getting very frustrated because 4 people who arrived after me got taken in.  I had an 8:45am duty to watch the students outside before school.  I texted a friend in case she needed to cover for me.  I asked the receptionist why people were going in ahead of me and she said they get called by appointment time.  WTF???  Any other location I would get called in immediately.  It was one stupid prick....I didn't need to have a discussion or have an u/s.

When the nurse finally called me in, I asked her a few questions.  I told her I had the tinge of pink and she said it was probably the m/c starting due to the falling betas.  I was to stay on my meds until she called me.  I asked if they would give me a prescription for something like naproxen if the pain was bad and she said that I would have to go to my GP for that....WTF?  

I made it to school at 8:42 and was outside for the 8:45 duty.  I was feeling crummy and angry and nervous all at once.  

I also still hadn't heard from my principal about meeting with me.

The day went on and I was increasingly more emotional.  Aside from the pending m/c my mom was bugging me about checking out another daycare for Scarlett - a whole other story.

By 2:30 I still hadn't heard from my nurse...have you noticed a trend with her yet.  She never calls when she should.  Last pregnancy I was at the W. location and they were so great there...I usually had all of my results by 1:30 each day.  I think this one forgets to call me...or she's just not sympathetic to women going through all of this.

I called the nurse and left a message saying that I really wanted to know my results....she did this the first beta too!  I called my home and there was no message.  I was FUMING...Now I had to wait until tomorrow to call the M. location to speak to someone there.  And still carry on with my meds and hold off from progressing from what could be a very emotional and painful few days.

I left school without speaking with my principal.  I figured I wasn't high on her priority list even though my email said that it was important that I speak with her confidentially.  I picked up Scarlett and went to my parents' house.  We went for a walk and then got Scarlett settled for dinner.  I decided to check my house phone one more time.

THE NURSE HAD CALLED....about fifteen minutes after I checked my phone and 30 minutes after the clinic had already closed.  

MY NUMBERS WENT UP!!!!!  They went from 68 to 113....Oh My Gosh!!!!

I'm not sure what to make of this.  I read so many stories about misdiagnosed miscarriages.  One of them resonated so closely with me but I thought it was impossible.  The girl said she had HCG of 30 and it basically stayed that low for a week and then started rising.  Well, it's been a week since my 10dp5dt beta....so, is this my body playing tricks on me, or could this become a viable pregnancy after all?  

I go in again on Sunday for a repeat beta.  Could the pink tinge have been new implantation bleeding?  Could the embryo have separated into two and one is a vanishing twin?  Could it have tried to implant and not been successful and then tried again?  I can't even believe it....the range of emotions....I'm shocked...stunned....OMGosh!  My nausea is real after all!