I always have so much to type during the day, and by the time I get to sit down and actually type, nothing comes out the way I wanted it to, or I miss all the ideas I had to write about. And really, I have so many thank you cards to write...today I wrote one!
Being a choice mom of two is the toughest job ever. Especially when the older one is potty training and under strict instructions not to get out of bed at night without me. I have to say, JM is the most patient baby ever! He cries for milk, and I get him latched on, and all of a sudden, "mommy, I need you..." So I unlatch him and help SR to the potty for the eleventh time b/c she has the feeling of poo coming but still wasn't grasping that she had to sit and wait for it...get her back to bed and JM latched back on again, only for it to happen again...and again...and again! My patience was tested Friday night, that's for sure! And JM, doesn't utter a peep about having to start and stop and start and stop.
Finally...FINALLY...she understands pooing! SR is potty trained!
I feel that I don't hold JM enough. I try to give SR so much attention. But then I also feel like I'm letting SR down. I get frustrated with her where I never did before due to sleep deprivation or feeling pulled in two directions. The other night I was trying to sing songs with her and JM was screaming...so I told her I had to go feed him. But then he stopped crying, so I went back in and we did our bedtime routine. I didn't want to let her down or make her feel second best.
But I've now spent this weekend mastering breastfeeding in places other than with the Brestfriend pillow to feed - I've done it on the bathtub ledge while SR is "pooing". I have BF on the floor playing lego and doing a puzzle. I have BF while on the computer (NOW). Now if only I could get those Thank You Cards written.
Okay, this is all I have time for...and some pictures:
Oh my word, these photos are awesome, they are both so beautiful! Great to see some awake shots of JM!
ReplyDeleteIt was the same way for me when Carys was a newborn. She wanted to nurse nonstop from about 5-9 pm, so I just had to learn to cook dinner, do bath, books, etc with her latched. It was super annoying! And yes, I too (still) get much more impatient than I ever did with just one. It is SO much harder! But I really don't think it hurts them in the long run, and just keep reminding yourself of the gift you are giving to SR in a sibling. Hang in there, you are in the thick of it now!
I've always wondered how the juggling of two goes. I've even thought about borrowing my nephew (two month old) for a night just to see what it is like. Just know, you are doing a wonderful job, and both of your kids know they are very loved!
ReplyDeleteYeah, it's incredibly challenging. In some ways much easier for me because of the huge age difference between mine. It will get easier once you're out of the newborn phase, I'd hope.
ReplyDeleteI did want to say, about the rash--I just saw that post--that my friend's son had a diaper rash so severe she had to contact a burn clinic; turned out to be milk-soy intolerance, among other things. You might cut all dairy and see if that helps?
The rash is clearing now that I cut out fruits. If I cut out dairy too I'll have nothing to eat. Will keep you posted. Thanks for the suggestion.
DeleteSounds like quite the juggling act!! I'm sure you're doing amazingly tho...just look at those SR smiles!
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine how challenging it is. I really wanted two, but in all honesty I don't know how I would manage.
ReplyDeleteYes, I remember well how difficult it was at this stage. Oh, my--I don't know how I got through it, probably by taking one day at a time. It's a challenge and you can't help but be a stronger person once you have survived the first 6-12 months with two little ones. You are doing great! Hang in there--get some rest if you can. Your children are happy and healthy. And loved. You are a wonderful mom!
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