What a Day

Today I have had several good cries. One of them for a good reason, and one out of complete and total frustration and exhaustion.

An average weekend for me has me sleeping in until 8am, and then I get up and go to the gym. This weekend I didn't get to the gym, nor did I get to sleep in until 8am. So, I'm definitely sleep deprived (I really like 8 hours a night to function properly - and yes I know that will have to change). Well, yesterday I woke up at 5:45 (an hour before my alarm) but I used the opportunity to use the treadmill b/c I wasn't going to the gym.

Last night I got to bed relatively early, b/c I knew I had to get up at 7:15 this morning to get to a breakfast (and start my suppositories and prometrium). Wouldn't you know that I was startled awake at 2:45am by teenagers screaming in the street. Now I was a teenager once, and I'm sure I was disruptive. But, now I'm an adult...an adult on the verge of a FET, who is highly medicated, and very sleep deprived. I figured they'd settle down and carry on their way. I'm also staying at my parents' house, so I'm not used to being on a regular street - and I look forward to moving into my new place in 2 1/2 weeks :) I waited and watched the kids from the window for about 15 minutes....they were hooting and hollering and carrying on. My parents' room is in the back of the house...as are all of the master bedrooms on this street...so I figured that all adults on the street were not hearing the ruckus I was....so I called the police. Yes, that's right...I am officially an adult who called the police to complain about noisy kids....I'm ready to be a parent :) The police hadn't arrived by 4 am...I watched the kids until then. When the kids walked away, I climbed back into bed and I guess I fell asleep. This morning when I told my mom what happened, she told me that my dad had gotten up at 4:30 like he always does, and he saw the police outside our house. He didn't know why. Well, I guess when it takes an hour and a half to come to a disruption there isn't anything to see.

Okay, I'm sleep deprived and back on the 3 hour fasts between meals - which never seems that long when I'm on the prometrium...I think b/c of the bloating and the fact that I'm eating slightly larger meals, I'm staying fuller longer. I went to hear a young lady, who I worked with when I was in university, speak about living with autism. Her mother wrote a book about her daughter, and her daughter spoke. I guess it's the hormones, and the sleep deprivation, and the fact that I worked with her when she was just a little girl, and now she's in her twenties and thriving, and the fact that I worry most about having a wonderful little child who changes before my eyes into being a child on the autism spectrum...but while she was speaking, I burst into tears...I was sobbing uncontrollably. My mother was rubbing my back and trying to get me to calm down. And I did calm down. I was just so moved by this wonderful young lady and her family (who I have known my entire life).

So, if one cry isn't enough, then I went grocery shopping. Today was the day that Loblaws was offering 20X the points...and I really wanted the points b/c I'm trying to get a free (or close to free) 32" flat screen TV for my new place before I move in two weeks. I spent over an hour walking through aisles, hand picking my produce, and calling my parents to see what else I could buy for them (b/c I had to spend over $75 to get the points). I got up to the cash and happened to ask the cashier, and she told me that the promotion was only at the superstore. I was so frustrated....I had already fasted for over 2 hours, and it was past time to take the prometrium, so that all I would have to do is wait one more hour to eat, but I didn't have water with me...and it was 1:45, so I wouldn't have been able to eat lunch until at least 2:45, if I had taken the pill then....and I called my mom and burst into tears, right in the middle of loblaws. I had to get a grip b/c I sometimes bump into my students at loblaws...and I know this is really not a big deal in the grand scheme of things. I was just frustrated b/c I knew I would have to go grocery shopping again at night if I was to get my points.

I ended up having a good day (although I'm wiped out)....went to Ikea with my mom and had an official lunch around 4:30. Then I went grocery shopping at 6:45 and finally came home to eat dinner late late late. The good news - I spent more than $75 on groceries, so I got my points. The other good news, the suppositories aren't bad at all...it's just scheduling all of my meds (luckily the patches stay on). Coordinating when to take the oral estrogen and vaginal estrogen and the suppositories and scheduling my meals around the 3 hour fasts for the prometrium. AND I NEED TO DO THIS FOR 10 WEEKS OF PREGNANCY? I know, it will all be worth it :)

Off to bed. 4 more days until transfer!