making myself crazy

Went online tonight to read about misdiagnosed miscarriages....just to make myself crazy.  It turns out my RE is not in the wrong for having me stay on my meds.  It is very possible to have such low betas, even dropping betas, and still go on to have healthy pregnancies.  Realistically, I know that the odds are slim.  I'm feeling less pregnant than before....but who knows?

One woman wrote that her betas were super low and unchanging for a week - well, tomorrow is my week.  Tomorrow will be my test about if it really is over or if the levels are actually going to go back up.  If it's over, it's over.  But imagine if this little embryo fights to nestle into my uterus?

I know some of you are thinking that I'm just putting myself onto a new roller coaster, but if I'm going down anyway, might as well feel okay the night before I go down.

So, thinking positively as I get ready for bed already way past my bedtime.  I usually get the results by about 3 pm.