6 week update

This week has been crazy busy.  I have been dealing with a sinus issue that I obviously do not want to treat - I have been using saline nasal spray which has been helping enough.  I had used the Neti-Pot during my previous pregnancy and that was awful so this is bearable.

On Wednesday, 5 weeks 6 days, I had my weekly beta test.  It came back at 8788.  Now I use the beta calculators to see my doubling time from last week.  It says that normal doubling times between 1700 to 6000 is 72-96 hours and after 6000 normal doubling time is 96+ hours.  Mine is registering at a 70.5 hours.  So again, this embryo is really doing well.  Still I don't want to get my hopes up, just in case.  I mentioned to my RE about the brown spotting last Friday and he did a check and said my cervix is closed and everything looks good.  By this time next week I will have had my 7 week u/s and hopefully seen a heartbeat!

I just want to write that after weeks and weeks of crying and feeling despair, things turned in my favour today.  I have been spending hours speaking with my representation and today in one of my meetings, I found my strength and my voice and my power.  I could not believe the words coming out of my mouth as I no longer felt fear.  Today I was successful!  Today I felt that I was the one in control and that I had taken my power back.  I was no longer a subordinate to my situation.  That's all I can say.  But I did relay my entire meeting to my representation via email and I am waiting for his congratulatory, I'm so proud of you, follow up email or phone call this weekend.