I know I can't be super woman all the time....but this first trimester is draining me terribly. And I'm not complaining about being pregnant...in fact, I think I had it much worse when I was pregnant with SR with all of the food aversions and nausea. But I am EXHAUSTED!
Okay, SR kept me up last night b/c she has been sick and had a high fever. And then this morning, I not only got myself to the GP, but met my dad with SR at the pediatrician's office. But by the time I got SR back home for her nap, I jumped into bed immediately and slept soundly for 2 hours. The rest of the afternoon I was in a haze. I couldn't get us out the door so I could go grocery shopping. I'm so lucky that all I need is some produce and my parents gave me some to tide me over and my mom is going to Walmart tomorrow anyway and will pick up what I need.
But with the exhaustion comes the fact that I can't get my place cleaned. I am basically doing what we need to get by: baths and showers, laundry, dishwasher (loading and emptying), making food, and playing as much as possible with SR. I did clean my bathroom on Friday night....
Okay, so it's not as bad as it seems...but I feel like I can't do it all. I'm just so darn tired. And going to work every day to a job I don't love - when I always loved going to work before - is making it harder. I am counting down the days until the break. It just so happens that the countdown to the end of the year will also be my countdown to when 2AB will be born.
Credit to my GPs office: I booked a 10:15 appointment last week for today with my GP - he hasn't seen me since March so I wasn't sure if he even knew who I was. I called this morning and explained my situation with my daughter needing to go to the pediatrician this morning too (and for those of you wondering, yes both my GP and SRs ped office open on Sunday), and they said they would fit me in any time.
My GP calls in patients in groups of 7 or 8 and then goes from room to room. I was NOT one of the names called. The receptionist said, "will you make your ped appointment?" and I said, "not a chance." So when the GP came out of his first patient's room, she went to speak to him, and the GP called me in IMMEDIATELY into the room that was just vacated. I thought that was sooooo nice! I told him about my pregnancy, and found it interesting that he didn't have the paperwork my RE said he was going to send after the 7 week u/s. Interesting b/c it's another time the clinic has fallen down on the job. Luckily I have another u/s this week and he can send the paperwork. I also gave him all of my recent blood work from my clinic. I remembered last time he sent me to have blood tests and I just don't have the time to sit in a lab with the responsibility of taking care of a toddler. He accepted it and did not ask me to go for more blood.
Yesterday there was a choice moms party in the area - it was great. SR kept saying "going to a party with only mommies." But what was interesting was I got into a brief discussion with some women about the fact that they are SMC - all of these women are from an SMC group (single mothers by choice), and yet I also belong to a choice moms group. I find I relate more to the term "choice moms" than SMC....and yet they seemed so attached to SMC. In any case, we are all on the same journey and it was nice to get together with these families. Weird coincidence was an old friend from University was there just starting this journey. So nice to reconnect and in such an interesting way.
Okay, I'm going to hop into the shower and try to get organized for bed. SR is spending the day with my parents tomorrow.
I'm sorry this is so physically draining--but you know, that's perfectly normal. You would be tired during your 1st trimester no matter what. (I know the other factors don't help though.) Just concentrate on the fact that the 2nd trimester will be here soon and that is the "feel good" trimester!
ReplyDeleteI remember when I was pregnant with #2. I would go to bed within a half hour of my son's bedtime. I just didn't care about anything else but sleep. You'll get through and look back on this time with amazement as to how strong your were!
Yup, I remember it too... I recall some Saturday mornings when it was all I could do to drag myself out of bed, sit Fiona down in front of an Elmo video with a bowl of dry cheerios and a sippy cup of milk, and curl up in a ball next to her. I was SOOOO tired. Ugh, I feel for ya. It is hard! Like Lara says, don't worry so much about keeping up with other stuff - you'll survive without fresh produce for a couple days and the bathroom can go 2 weeks without cleaning :) Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteSorry you are feeling so bad but I think it is a great sign that all is well and that little bub is thriving. I agree with the other comments too - get as much rest as you can and don't feel guilty about any of it. You are growing a new human being after all, and nurturing a small child - that's remarkable, and quite enough to be doing right now!
ReplyDeleteJust catching up on blogs after being away...sorry to hear you're having it rough. I remember how exhausted I was in the 1st trimester, I can't imagine doing it while chasing Elena around too!!
ReplyDeleteWe'll have to chat in the new year. I would really like to pick your brain about how to connect with the choice mom's groups (I like "choice mom" better too :)) you mention.
I hoping all went well today. Take care of yourself--get all the rest you can. I remember how exhausting it was having a toddler and being pregnant (not to mention teaching full time). BTW, have you tried ginger tea? It really helped with my nausea!
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